Sunday, August 26, 2018

Just Trust...

I love CHRISTMAS! and when I say love that is an understatement. CHRISTMAS to me is one of my favourite things EVER!!! I can tell you (on most days) how many days there is till Christmas, like today is 121 days…  So when it came time to sell all my Christmas stuff on this journey of selling pretty much everything I own I felt sad, hesitant, and it was really hard to bring myself to list it. It was actually the last thing I listed out of every thing I own. I even sold my bed before I sold my Christmas stuff lol. I have probably spent thousands of dollars on my Christmas decor. 

 But I knew there was no turning back and I listed it and 100 inquiries later I realized I wasn’t the only one that loved Christmas.

 Then I asked myself what does it mean to be obedient? Even though it was hard to list my stuff I knew that it was fear of giving up the things I love, the things that I am familiar with, and going into the unknown. Ultimately it came down to trust. I had to trust that this was my path.  Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”. The plan God had for my life was bigger then I could ever imagine, but I needed to submit to him to make my path straight and allow him to lead me to what he has in store for me. I think about how my life was before I gave my life to God, I think about the feeling I had of always having to be in control of everything, and having so much anxiety not knowing what was to come, but now I know that God is in the drivers seat of my life and he will not lead me astray. “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21

And I trust that God will lead the way. 

Friday, August 24, 2018

Starting Over + Living a Life of Intention

  What does it mean to start over. To move away from everything you know and to a city that you have never lived. To sell everything you have ever owned and rid yourself of the past? Does it mean a fresh new beginning or does it mean a loss. A loss of identity, a loss of materialistic objects, a loss of money as things aren’t valued at what they used to be, a loss of community, a loss of friendships, and a loss of your comfort zone. 
  When you let go of things that have tied you down, you make room to live more intentionally, to gain a sense of humility, to completely start fresh in life and live a life that is more meaningful.
    Before I even decided to move I felt God preparing me for something. I felt that he was guiding me in my steps. I had this urge to purge everything, begin selling things I no longer needed and sell my car (and I loved my car, and only owned it for a year).  I felt like there were things I needed to fast from (such as alcohol, dating and social media), and I needed to surrender and tune in to where God was leading me. I had never felt such an urge in my life. I couldn’t sleep because I was excited, I didn’t have a job or home lined up but I felt completely at peace with my decision. It was hard leaving my cushy lifestyle and giving up a career that I had spent the last few years working tirelessly at, but ultimately I knew I needed to let God be in the drivers seat.

 Matthew 19:21 which says “Jesus answered, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."
 This verse kept coming up. It would come up in podcasts I was listening to, it would randomly pop up in my head and would come up sitting in church and I knew I needed to make the decision to follow Christ where he was leading me which ultimately was a new city for me. Although I didn’t give everything to the poor ridding my self of “stuff” made me more generous,  able to sell my stuff for ridiculously cheap to people who needed it more then I did,  and ultimately it made me more intentional with what I buy, the things I seek, and what truly matters in life.
  After putting my trust in God and surrendering to his path everything came so easily, my stuff started selling rapidly, my car sold within a week, I kept coming across people who I knew in Toronto, I started making connections there and ultimately I felt eager, eager of what was to come. 

   I knew that once I arrived it wouldn’t be easy, but in fact growth is never easy and if you are feeling too comfortable then you probably aren’t growing and I have been stagnant for far too long...

  This isn’t goodbye West Coast but a see ya later… 
Can't wait to see what God has in store for me.