Wednesday, January 2, 2019

New Year... Same Fabulous You!


A New Year is upon us and for a lot of people A New Year usually means
New Year, New Me or maybe it's New Year, New Beginnings,
 but what about the You up to this point?

What about all the hard days and good days that you had to go through to get to where you are right now? and maybe it's not perfect (let's face it, no-one is), and maybe there is some fixable things, but don't discount everything you have had to face up to this point. 

 So instead of trying to completely change yourself why not just try to better ourselves?. Let's stop hating everything and start to realize that bad things come with good things, and good things take time.  

  God calls us fearfully and wonderfully made and created us in his image so we must love ourselves the way God has created us, yes there will always be things to change, there will always be things we can fix but things won't ever get better if you don't have some gratitude along the way. 

Here are three things that you can do this year to be the best version of you! 

1.) Small habits become lasting results-> I have seen the exact opposite of this since I was a kid. Quick fixes, Get skinny fast diets, working out for only the month of January and then quitting. I slowly learned that none of these work and to actually make lasting results I needed to create small habits in my own life that over time would ultimately lead me to something more sustainable. 

2.) Find someone to keep you accountable-> It is easy to fall off course when no-one knows what you are doing, or the changes you are making, but when someone else knows your intentions then you feel worse if you let them slide. I know when I want to accomplish something that if I put it on my social media or tell my best friend I will more likely accomplish it. 

3.) Fast from something that is distracting you from your intentions-> At my church we fast for 21 days. Fasting can be obstaining from something that distracts you or it can be fasting from food. (More about fasting to come). 
We do this in January to prepare for 2019 and then we pray over our goals for the year and believe with God for everything to come into fruition. 

In every small step you take to be a better version of you just remember that good things take time and you are working to be renewed day by day. 

" He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."- Ecclesiastes 3:11

Saturday, December 29, 2018

Prayer for 2019



God reminds us that he can quiet a storm, calm waves and hush hurricanes. (Psalm 107:29)

  I don’t know what you all are going through today or bringing with you into 2019, but I pray that the tragedies in your life will calm, I pray that your anxiety will lighten, and I pray that God will give you peace. I pray that you wake up on January 1st feeling renewed and knowing that the beginning of a New Year is a time of rejuvenation, a time to hit refresh and a time to start over.
    Regardless if you believe in God, theology, philosophy or anything else you may believe in, the truth is we have more in common than we don’t. We are all human beings just trying to figure out this life. 

So I want to ask that if you are going through troubles, or if you are believing for something in 2019 and you need a prayer that you ask.

My promise to you all is that I will prayer for anyone who is bold enough to ask for it because regardless of whatever your belief’s we all live by faith, not by sight. 

Wednesday, December 26, 2018

Lessons I am Learning


A few lessons God is teaching me right now 

Be Still (psalm 46:10) God has called me here for a bigger purpose then I’m even aware of and I try to rush into it, feeling antsy and anxious of what’s to come, instead of knowing that he has me in this season for a reason maybe that means teaching me, rooting me or preparing me for what’s to come. 

I am Enough and my identity comes from God alone (Jeremiah 1:5). I constantly need to remind myself that God has created me fearfully and wonderfully made and my identity is through him and not through the ways of the world. 

Be Different! It’s not easy but it’s probably best to be different. (Romans 12:2) it’s easy to fit in to the patterns of the world, it’s challenging to stand out and do something different, but I’m finding the latter is always better and makes me feel more fulfilled and I like being different.

Gratitude always makes you appreciate what you have instead of what you don’t.  (psalm 100:1-5) 

Trust - that God has brought me here for a reason and his timing is never wrong. (Isaiah 40:31)

I will not be Ashamed! - I have had many people unfollow me or shame me for expressing my faith, but I’ve also been able to give hope & purpose by sharing my faith to people who need it, so I’m going to be the biggest, boldest version of myself I possibly can and will not apologize for it. (Romans 1:16-17)

Thursday, December 13, 2018

Chaos



Emotional Chaos that I cannot control 
Insecurities that haven’t been present for years
Not feeling worthy, loved or good enough at anything.
Feeling like I am constantly being judged by others 

Feeling loneliness, sadness and feeling so far from everyone yet in close corners to too many people..

 these are just some of the things I have been feeling and I have to tell you I would love them to get out of my head and unfortunately it’s easier said than done. 

    I knew I would be uncomfortable in this season, but I just didn’t know how uncomfortable I would be. It seemed too easy and seamless. I felt like God lined up everything perfectly and he did, but the more I got settled, the more uncomfortable I was. The more I felt like God’s big calling should consist of more and sooner.  

 The more I felt planted the more I didn’t appreciate where I was planted because of the feelings inside my head telling me I was not good enough.
The more I felt right, the more I wanted to go run, hide and never come out. 

But I know when you are on the right path, challenges come from the enemy. The more you feel you are going forward the more the doubts, the fears, and the struggle is present. 


God has given me vision for my life, and to be honest it scares me. He has given me vision that I really don’t know how to bring to life. He has came to me in a series of dreams that I didn’t know how to understand until I prayed and got clarity of what they were about. 
 I know he has called me for big things, bigger things than I am capable of, but I don’t have to be capable, because God is capable of everything. 

I know he has me in this season for a reason and that in his timing things will come into fruition.  My biggest fear is to not live out his calling on my life. He says “Be still and know that I am God”, but I have trouble being still, not trying to push forward and do more when right now he is asking me to be still in this season and allow him to do the good work in me. 

I have to give myself some grace that I just uprooted my entire life and started all over and that it takes time to build a firm foundation.
How do you build a firm foundation -> you plant yourself firmly 

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

Sow The Seeds Today To Be More Fruitful For Tomorrow



If you asked me a year ago if I would be sitting here in my new apartment in Toronto preaching the power of God and how he led me here, I would have laughed in your face, but  here I am and this is my journey. 

 People often say to me that they wish they could have the courage to do what I did and sell everything and move somewhere else, but do they really want to make the sacrifices? 

    Most people have a path they want to take, a goal, an objective and I don’t.  I have a God who I believe is guiding my every step and has laid out a path for me. He is the lamp under my feet and a light unto my path. Are you really willing to give up your own agenda to surrender to Gods plan?

Matthew 10:39 says “Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.”
  I never thought I would be the girl who stopped chasing her dreams and stopped needing to have control over everything, but here I am surrendering and saying I don’t want to be in control. I am living life one day at a time sowing the seeds today to be more fruitful for tomorrow.
 “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” - Matthew 6:34 

Are you willing to lose your life to find it again?

Monday, November 5, 2018

Saturday, November 3, 2018

My Faith Journey to Toronto





I can’t help but feel like I am on this incredible new journey into the unknown path that God has for me. I have prayed and reached out for clarity, for deliverance and that he will always lead’s me down his path, instead of my own. 
  
   People ask me if I am nervous and I can honestly say that I am not. I am not nervous because I feel so at peace that this is the right path I need to take. Everything has aligned thus far in God’s perfect timing instead of my own.

A bit about my journey to Toronto:

  When I first felt God’s call to move to Toronto I wasn’t sure on the date of the move because I had a lot going on over the next few months and work was going into busy season, on top of that I had to sell all my belongings so I wanted to ensure I had time for to do that. I prayed about it and finally decided I would move November 1st and a week after I decided the date (and I hadn’t told anyone yet) my landlord told me she was selling the apartment I currently live in and had to be out November 1st. Then a couple from my church asked me about the place, came and viewed it and then bought the apartment two days later. (Talk about God’s timing). 
  
 I had booked a trip to Toronto the first week of September to check out different area’s and hopefully look into apartments (although if I was moving in November then September was a little to far in advance to look for an apartment). I was only going to move into a shared apartment or room as I knew furnishing a new place would be expensive and I wasn’t sure about work, but I saw an apartment listed and instantly had a feeling about it. I emailed about it and viewed it the day before flying back to Vancouver. 

     When I was in the apartment I kept hearing God tell me that he isn’t pulling me backwards, he is pushing me forward and I instantly knew I had to set my standards of living to the same living standards I was living in Vancouver. The landlord showed it to me and didn’t even respond to any other email inquiries because he liked my email and how I had presented myself (which if you know the rental market in Toronto, this is crazy in itself) and I ended up signing the lease and finding a home. (God is so Gracious) 

   Before signing the lease and knowing what area I would be living in, I saw a job posting for a job that I knew would fit me so well. I applied for it, and ended up getting an interview with the company (as they are based in Vancouver). 50% of the interview we ended up talking about my faith and God’s plan for me (which I am always a bit hesitant to bring up to people I don’t know, especially in a professional setting). They said I was so refreshing and that I am going to thrive in my life. It was just another confirmation that I am on God’s path and not my own. Oh, and the job just happens to be basically on the same street as my new apartment. I didn’t hear back about the job for about a month and I was eager, anxiously awaiting, checking my emails multiple times daily.  

     It was a long process of waiting, then I felt God tell me I hadn’t surrendered everything to him yet and that I wouldn’t receive job security until I realized that he was my security and nothing else. I felt him telling me to put half my savings into my investments so I couldn’t touch it when I got to Toronto and so I did. I knew if I was going on this journey God’s way then I needed to rely on him as my security instead of a job or bank account. The day after I invested my money I heard back that I got the job. It would have been too easy to receive the blessing of this job right away, but instead God had to work on my foundation so I would surrender everything to him. 
   
 Of course occasionally I couldn’t help but to worry about things like will I get the job?(before I got the job) or the stress of finding an apartment (before I found one),  or am I making the right choice? Financially is this sustainable (new city, same high prices), and I have to refurnish a new apartment, which if anyone has to start over from scratch financially that takes you back a lot (and if you know me I am always someone who needs to be going forward in life instead of backwards). All these things are not God’s path but the enemy trying to tell me I am not worthy, that I need to have fear and anxiety through this journey, but then I pray about all these things and the first verse that usually pops in my head is “Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight” Proverbs 3:5-6. 

and I go right back into TRUST! 

     Trusting that God’s plan is better then my plan, that he has plans to prosper me, to not harm me but to give me hope and a future. He has lined up everything for me, and he is already exceeding my expectations of what is to come.
Matthew 19:29  says “And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.”


God promises that those who leave their home or property and surrender to him will receive a hundred times as much. & I believe that the blessings he is about to uncover in my life will be more then I could ever ask for. 

God is leading the way and I am so excited to see where he is taking me. 

So I leave you with this “Have faith in God,”  Jesus answered. “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain,
‘Go throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” -Mark 11:23