Thursday, July 5, 2018

Letting Go...

It is impossible to be effective in two places simultaneously 
We can never give one hundred percent of ourselves in the present if we keep dwelling on the past. Our potential will never reach its maximum capacity; future goals get delayed, insecurity and fear will dominate. There is a lot at stake to remain stagnant and truthfully your life will be unhappy.

This week has been so many Godly signs to let go of things in the past. Dreams, verses, scriptures, + preachings telling me to look onward to my God given potential and let go of those things and people that keep me chained in a place that I am no longer at. 
Sometimes you have to stop and listen to what God is saying to you. 
Philippians 3:13-14 is a great reminder to let go of things behind you and press on to what’s ahead. “Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

What are you holding on to in your past that’s preventing you from living your God given potential?

Friday, June 15, 2018

Nashville Murals

The Opposite of Fear is Faith

      We live in a world of fear. Since my journey to Jesus, one constant theme I see in the people around me is brokenness. We live in a broken world full of chaos, and one bad thing happens after another. People are constantly on edge, constantly anxious and constantly battling something bigger then themselves. 

     How do I know this? Because I used to be one of those people. I used to live a life full of anxiety, I used to live a life full of worry, full of fear, full of brokenness that I couldn’t quite figure out how to get rid of, so I put on a mask to show I was okay and never really let anyone know I wasn’t. I was never fulfilled. 

     I would see people who have faith and see this energy about them, a sense of fulfillment and a sense of ease with their life. I wanted to live a life without worry and I wanted to feel more fulfilled. I wanted what they had.Ephesians 5:14-15  says that God wants us to live a life with honour, purpose and courage and that’s exactly what I wanted. I wanted to be surrounded with purpose, courage, honour and I knew that strength would only come from Jesus. 

     On the outside looking in I looked like I had it all figured out. I made a good amount of money, had a ton of friends, travelled often, was always doing something fun or exciting, but to be honest it was all a cover up so I wasn’t alone in my thoughts. I worked so much to try to fulfill something in me and the moment I sat still I felt alone, isolated, purposeless. I had friends that were great when they were, but if you needed them in times of trouble you couldn’t count on them. I had money that I would use to buy “things” because I thought if I bought a car I would feel fulfilled, if I refurnished my apartment I would be fulfilled and it just left me feeling even more empty then before. I realized that money, materialistic things, the wrong community and being a workaholic couldn’t fix my soul.

    When fixing my eyes on Jesus and going through this season of change in my life it was HARD, it was so challenging and it made me grow. It made me change into this person I did not recognize. I became a person who was at ease in challenging times, who knew that pain was present, but only temporary to adapt and create change in me, and God was adding long term value to my life. I knew that I was like a deep rooted tree. My leaves may fall off during seasons of pain/growth, but I was so firmly planted in my foundation that allowed me the growth that God wanted in my life. 

    Do you know where worry comes from? It comes from thinking we are in control and trying to be in control. True rest is unattainable for people who are obsessed with leading their own lives. 
    Psalm 127:1-2 NIV  says “Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain. In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat- for he grants sleep to those he loves”
Finding God meant finding less worry and finding more joy. It meant leaning on him in hard times instead of trying to be in control of everything. It meant letting go of the things that were crumbling from my life and realizing that these things were leaving my life to make space for new things that added value.

    When I first started on my journey of faith I didn’t know where to begin. Sure, I went to church but to me I didn’t want to just go through the motions of church I wanted something more, so I started watching youtube videos of different pastors and when I did, I wanted more, then I wanted more and I couldn’t stop. Whenever I felt like there was something I needed to hear a fellow christian would reference the bible and say something to me that just fit and eased whatever I was going through. I knew God was talking to me. Then I started attending Alpha, I went to a women's conference, I started reading bible plans daily and when I would flip open the bible to seek out God's word and I would highlight so much because it just resonated with me. I realized that all those self help books I read over the years were nothing compared to what I was reading now.  The bible had become my life line. The counsellor I always needed.

    Since coming to faith I have had more love for people, I have had more compassion, I am nicer to people, and if you ask anyone who has seen the change in me one word they always use to express the change in me is that I now have a sense of peace. I turned to Jesus's love and ultimately I love myself more now then ever before.

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Wednesday, March 21, 2018


We live in an anxiety filled world. Most people I meet or talk with are consistently anxious or on edge. They have too much going on in their mind + are never fully present or relaxed. 
We deal with one constant pressure after the other. This has been a huge discussion between my peers lately. 

So how do you diminish pressure? You share the load. Find people who you cannot con, who you can be fully engaged with, people you can be broken in front of + you know they won’t judge you. People who will be real with you and tell you not what you want to hear, but what you need to hear. Some people in your life are meant to be kept at a distance because of the level of purpose YOU have in your life. You aren’t being lifted you’re being launched + you are rapidly ascending. Don’t have people in your life who will take up oxygen that you will need in your journey

Friday, January 26, 2018

A Guide To Palm Springs...

Waking up to the sun pouring into my window, I walk outside my room to the smell of serenity, the cool breeze nestles my arm as the sun beats down on my face. I can't help but feel that one word came to mind the whole time I was in Palm Springs. GLORIOUS!!!

    The whole experience was glorious. From the poolside hangouts with my best friend, to the treacherous 5457 elevation we climbed up Ryan Mountain in Joshua Tree and to the friends we met along the way. 

  Here are some of my fav's from our trip! 

 1.) Spending the Day drinking Margarita's by the pool. 
We stayed at The Double Tree by Hilton Golf Resort and it was perfectly situated 10 mins from downtown Palm Springs and it felt like it's own little Oasis. The staff were lovely, the golf instructor was great, the lobby smelled like fresh chocolate chip cookies which made you feel right at home and not to mention the unlimited supply of Chocolate Chip Cookies. 

2.) The Ace Hotel 

I think it added to the experience that there was a bike/car show in town, but everything looked so vintage and old school and even everyone there looked like they came out of a 1960's movie. We had a delicious brunch and checked out the pool. 

I really think sometimes I should join a biker gang ... then I think mmm better not. 

3.) Exploring the town and That Pink Door. 
OKKK I probably only wanted to come here because it's like the "thing" to do, but there is something to be said about driving around with your best friend getting up to mischief and exploring things you have never seen before. 

4.) Sunrise Hikes: Araby Trail 
Not sure why anyone wakes up this early on Vacation, but the weather was perfect for hiking, we saw the sunrise and we had the rest of the day still to explore 

5.) The Aerial Tramway 
I don't like to admit when I am scared, but this thing was scary. It's bad enough that the whole thing sway's at 5 different points going up, but the floor rotates too. It was beautiful once I finally was able to look. Also was super beautiful when we got up to the top, but it was also very COLD and SNOWY!!

6.) Tahquitz Canyon Waterfall 
The hike itself was beautiful with ginormous rocks. The waterfall was beautiful and it was a great way to start off our morning. 

Joshua Tree was probably one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen. We hiked up Ryan Mountain and explored the different exhibits. 

8.) Live Music at The Village Pub 
There was an incredible band that played both Friday and Saturday at The Village Pub and they were incredible. 

9.) Village Fest 
Every Thursday night the middle of downtown becomes this little market and have anything you ever imagined, topped with live music and food trucks. 

10.) R&R 
Nothing beats spending time with someone you love and having some much needed R&R. Oh & The Palm Tree's!!! I just love the PALM TREES

Can't wait for my next adventure. 

Have you been to Palm Springs? What was your favourite part? Where is your next adventure?

Friday, August 18, 2017

Honest Hour ♥
I've been feeling stuck lately... I had a good reminder last night as someone came up to me and said "I want your life, what do you even do?"The inside view may look alot different then the outside. Reminding you all that wherever you are today, it gets better. We are on our own individual journey. The beauty of this journey .... No two are the same.  Go easy on yourself, have fun + enjoy the ride.💋

Monday, July 24, 2017

An Ode to My Younger Self

“The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings.” 
~Ralph Blum

      It' true that I hadn't had much human connection until I chose to let go of those I wasn't connecting too.
In my lifetime (until now) I have had little support from those around me. I had constant doubt thrown my way, I had people who never believed I would amount to anything and I had a never ending battle of wanting to believe I was good enough and never feeling like I was.

     I was abandoned by my father at a young age and have yet to reconcile with it. I have never been close to any of my family and because of this I have always been alone. I always had no choice but to be independant, to not give up, to work hard and to make smart decisions because at the end of the day I had no one to lean on but myself.  I do not share my story because I am a victim. In fact I have never victimized myself and will not allow myself to become a victim to my circumstances. Living the life I do has only forced me to work harder, to do better and to become stronger.
      I can honestly say that I am living a life I love.  You may wonder why I am choosing to share this now?  because for the first time in my life I don't feel like I owe anything to anyone, I don't feel like I have to be "good enough" because I know my worth and I choose not to hold on to those who show me less value then I deserve. This summer marks 10 years being gone from my hometown and I can honestly say i have exceeded any expectations I ever had of myself. I have redefined me as a person ...and I have LIVED... oh 1000x I have lived.
      For any of you who may be in a tough spot or may not think you are good enough please don't limit yourself. Thoughts become things and the universe is ready to take you on a wild ride. 

And at the end of the day just be you... you are more then enough.
 ( 🔝 No filters, no fillers, no makeup, no prep... just me raw + real) 🍎 - Michelle Apples