Saturday, December 29, 2018

Prayer for 2019



God reminds us that he can quiet a storm, calm waves and hush hurricanes. (Psalm 107:29)

  I don’t know what you all are going through today or bringing with you into 2019, but I pray that the tragedies in your life will calm, I pray that your anxiety will lighten, and I pray that God will give you peace. I pray that you wake up on January 1st feeling renewed and knowing that the beginning of a New Year is a time of rejuvenation, a time to hit refresh and a time to start over.
    Regardless if you believe in God, theology, philosophy or anything else you may believe in, the truth is we have more in common than we don’t. We are all human beings just trying to figure out this life. 

So I want to ask that if you are going through troubles, or if you are believing for something in 2019 and you need a prayer that you ask.

My promise to you all is that I will prayer for anyone who is bold enough to ask for it because regardless of whatever your belief’s we all live by faith, not by sight. 

Wednesday, December 26, 2018

Lessons I am Learning


A few lessons God is teaching me right now 

Be Still (psalm 46:10) God has called me here for a bigger purpose then I’m even aware of and I try to rush into it, feeling antsy and anxious of what’s to come, instead of knowing that he has me in this season for a reason maybe that means teaching me, rooting me or preparing me for what’s to come. 

I am Enough and my identity comes from God alone (Jeremiah 1:5). I constantly need to remind myself that God has created me fearfully and wonderfully made and my identity is through him and not through the ways of the world. 

Be Different! It’s not easy but it’s probably best to be different. (Romans 12:2) it’s easy to fit in to the patterns of the world, it’s challenging to stand out and do something different, but I’m finding the latter is always better and makes me feel more fulfilled and I like being different.

Gratitude always makes you appreciate what you have instead of what you don’t.  (psalm 100:1-5) 

Trust - that God has brought me here for a reason and his timing is never wrong. (Isaiah 40:31)

I will not be Ashamed! - I have had many people unfollow me or shame me for expressing my faith, but I’ve also been able to give hope & purpose by sharing my faith to people who need it, so I’m going to be the biggest, boldest version of myself I possibly can and will not apologize for it. (Romans 1:16-17)

Thursday, December 13, 2018

Chaos



Emotional Chaos that I cannot control 
Insecurities that haven’t been present for years
Not feeling worthy, loved or good enough at anything.
Feeling like I am constantly being judged by others 

Feeling loneliness, sadness and feeling so far from everyone yet in close corners to too many people..

 these are just some of the things I have been feeling and I have to tell you I would love them to get out of my head and unfortunately it’s easier said than done. 

    I knew I would be uncomfortable in this season, but I just didn’t know how uncomfortable I would be. It seemed too easy and seamless. I felt like God lined up everything perfectly and he did, but the more I got settled, the more uncomfortable I was. The more I felt like God’s big calling should consist of more and sooner.  

 The more I felt planted the more I didn’t appreciate where I was planted because of the feelings inside my head telling me I was not good enough.
The more I felt right, the more I wanted to go run, hide and never come out. 

But I know when you are on the right path, challenges come from the enemy. The more you feel you are going forward the more the doubts, the fears, and the struggle is present. 


God has given me vision for my life, and to be honest it scares me. He has given me vision that I really don’t know how to bring to life. He has came to me in a series of dreams that I didn’t know how to understand until I prayed and got clarity of what they were about. 
 I know he has called me for big things, bigger things than I am capable of, but I don’t have to be capable, because God is capable of everything. 

I know he has me in this season for a reason and that in his timing things will come into fruition.  My biggest fear is to not live out his calling on my life. He says “Be still and know that I am God”, but I have trouble being still, not trying to push forward and do more when right now he is asking me to be still in this season and allow him to do the good work in me. 

I have to give myself some grace that I just uprooted my entire life and started all over and that it takes time to build a firm foundation.
How do you build a firm foundation -> you plant yourself firmly